Boek: the quest of Rose

Het boek 'the quest of Rose' geschreven door Anneloes Smitsman & Jean Houston is het eerste deel uit de future humans trilogy. Ik vond het een moeilijk leesbaar boek en best saai. Ik had de Engelse versie gelezen en er is ook een Nederlandse vertaling. Misschien dat ik die ooit nog eens ga lezen om alles beter te kunnen begrijpen. Er is één oefening in het boek die mijn aandacht trok. Deze staat hieronder. 

Practice for entering the unconscious - intro

Relax yourself as much as possible. Release any tensions you may be holding in your body. Become utterly receptive. Now relax even more. Connect with your imaginal powers and let yourself be guided.

Imagine a surface that is floating in front of you. Above this surface is the world of your daily consciousness, with information of which you are conscious. Below the surface of your conscious awareness are the subtle dimensions of your mind. Tune into this surface and notice its texture. Does it feel hard and solid or soft and permeable (doorlaatbaar)? Or perhaps even fluid like water? Can information from your unconscious easily emerge to the surface of your mind? Or is it filtered out? Perhaps even suppressed from entering above the surface of your conscious mind?

Just notice whatever comes to you intuitively about this surface layer of your mind. This holds the threshold (drempel) between your conscious and unconscious awareness. Whatever its structure, thank it for the role it has served. Realize that this surface is made from your consciousness and can thus also be changed by your consciousness becoming conscious. If you wish to get greater access to your unconscious and the archetypal mythic realms (werelden) inside of you, know in your heart that this is fully possible. Thank your mind for its protective role and remind it of this possibility.

For the purpose of this practice, inform your mind of your intention to descend (afdalen) below the surface of your conscious mind. Let it know of your desire to consciously enter the realm of your unconscious in a way that is safe and healthy. If you start to feel sleepy, know that this is a natural part of the inner descent because your brain is shifting into delta brain waves. Notice the sleepiness without engaging it. Allow yourself to descend further and further and deeper and deeper within yourself, and do so while staying awake. If the upward push is still keeping you at the surface, you may call on the help of your inner gravity and ask it to help you descend further and deeper into yourself.

Practice

Imagine how your unconscious is like a great ocean. With the help of gravity, you're now moving below the surface of your inner ocean of consciousness. From below the water, look up now to the surface of your reality and realize how you have now left the outer surface world behind. You are now entering a deep inner state of consciounsness with direct access to your own unconscious, as well as to our collective unconscious. You may even feel how this state is warm, and moist (vochtig): different from your usual state of being. In fact, it's a whole new and other state where you enter into the very realm of enormous potentials, stories, and ways of being. You are becoming mythic. You are entering the dream of the 'higher becoming' that has attracted the higher mind of humanity since -time out of mind- (mensenheugenis). You need to become aware of this for your path of destiny; your actualization in time and space.

Surrender to this deep inner state of the unconscious now. Ask it to share with you what you need to become aware of for your self-actualization, healing, and destiny. Your unconscious carries symbolic sources of knowing and archetypal wisdom that have not been filtered through the ordinary mind. It may provide you with whole new perspectives and understanding about yourself and your life. Thank your unconscious for processing your information while you are in deep sleep.

Now ask the Cosmic architect inside you to form a bridge between your conscious and unconscious mind. You can imagine this as an inner ladder from the center of your brain below your -pineal gland- (pijnappelklier) all the way down along your spine and through your heart. Through this inner ladder, you can intentionally move up and down, above and below the surface layers of your reality, and descend consciously into the inner dimensions that are below the surface of your waking mind.

Become aware of how your personal unconscious is directly part of the collective unconscious. The collective unconscious also serves as -a vast source- (enorme bron) of knowledge and wisdom, as well as archetypal ways of being, knowing, and creating that enhance our abilities and actualization. It also includes reservoirs of collective memories of experiences we've lived, as well as the knowledge of the possibilities and probabilities (waarschijnlijkheden) that never came into being. The unborn and aborted dreams and desires of humanity, when left unhealed, can contribute to collective pain and traumas.

Ask the collective unconscious now to gently share with you what may serve your further development, healing, and actualization. If you become aware of any of your own unborn and aborted dreams, desires, and potentials, just notice this with a loving presence. Simply realizing and acknowledging this creates a space for healing. If there's anything to learn from what you are becoming aware of, allow this learning to emerge gently and with care.

Acknowledge how your own inner healing also supports a deeper healing of the collective unconsciousness, as your experiences are part of the collective unconscious. Ask the deep waters of the collective unconscious to heal all of our experiences and any traumas by nourishing the inner waters of our personal and collective memories with forgiveness, grace, and love. Ask for healing of the psychic structures for all of humanity, and for a whole and healed world and future.

With gratitude for all you experienced, use your inner ladder now -to ascend up- (opstijgen)  to the surface of your conscious reality. Become fully present in your present reality and whole self in relaxed awareness and deep connection with yourself and life. When you are ready, you may open your eyes.

Notes

Toen ik deze oefening voor het eerst deed kreeg ik meteen een bepaald beeld door, maar ik besef me nu achteraf dat iedereen een ander beeld zal creëren. Wat ik wel "zag" was dat het aan de ene kant zo licht was dat ik werd verblind en dat het aan de andere kant zo donker was dat ik niks (geen hand voor ogen) zag. Dus aan welke kant ik ook was. Ik kon niks zien. Alleen maar voelen.

Beide kanten (het licht en het donker) zetten je in het ongewisse. Het één is niet beter dan het ander. Ookal heb je misschien voorkeur voor het licht. Laat je vooral leiden door je gevoel en niet door wat je ziet.